The Persuit of....

Yeah, so I saw the movie "The Pursuit of Happyness" good flick, wasnt my favorite movie... however. The message was well.... lets just say the message was way better than the movie. You know my dad always used to quote one of Zig Zigglar's sayings. He used to tell me to "be somebody". He also used to tell me that "I could do anything I wanted if I put my mind to it" I am sure that every dad has said somethhing along those lines to thier kid. However, through lifes little hiccups I think I have lost sight of those little principles. I dont have to be rich, I dont have to be sexxy, (cause I already am) LOL. I dont have to say what I think people want to hear, or beleive what others seem to want to make me beleive. I just need to be me. Be somebody! I used to tell people that I was still trying really figure myself out, like I thought I was complex. Im not. I am very simple, strait forward, honest/blunt to a fault sometimes. I have needs like anyone else. I want to be loved, I want to show love. I want to succeed, I want to be succesful, I want to be able to provide for my family if I ever get one in a way that my Dad was never able to do for me and my sister. i want to be able to give them everything.. the very best. I want to have my own needs met... I said needs. Wants are nice, but for me... I just want to have enough to get bye and be comfortable. In a conversation with someone recently I said that. I just want the bare minimum to survive and have a roof over my head and be able to pay my bills, have a nice life, nothing too extravagant.. Thier responce was... "thats your problem....no wonder you dont have more". They horribly misunderstood me. Needs are something that are supposed to be supplied by God if your seeking him 1st they said. I agree with that... however a line in the movie tonight really just hit home the way I feel about that issue. Will Smith's son was telling a joke.

he said something to the effect of... " A man was in the ocean trying to stay afloat to keep from drowning... soon there after came a very big boat and called out to the man saying "let us help you"... the guy in the water said "No, if I just have faith in God, He will save me!!".... A second huge boat comes by after awhile and yells out to the drowning man.."Let us help you, let me save you" The man still replies " NO, if I just have faith in God, He will save me!!" The man very shortly after that cant swim any longer and drowns to death. When the man gets to heaven, he looks at God and says..."God, when I was out there in the ocean treading water... I had faith, I beleived, why did you let me drown, why did I die?" God looks at him and says... " What do you mean I let you drown??? I sent 2 HUGE boats to save you!

Man, that crashed down on my head like a load of bricks. It didnt sink in until the ride home for me. How much have I missed... How many times have I been crying out to God for him to give me what I "need/want" and missed the very thing that could have made it all a reality because I was scared, not ambicious, or unbelieving. You have to take it! "It" being whatever it is in your life that is being put in front of you. Whatever decisions, situations, opportunities. Dont hesitate, If you do, and you just wait for God to heap blessings your way, even if your seeking His kingdom 1st... What other stuff have you missed out on that you could have had, had you not gone for it, "taken it". In my opinion, you have to do something! There has to be some action on your part to show God your for real and that you want it. That your not what I call a "moocher". Yes, absolultely trust in God for the things you NEED, yes continue to pray and dedicate yourself to His teachings. It says .. "All these things will be added unto you" In Luke... its talking about necessities, not all the extra stuff God could possibly have for you if you would just reach out and grab it. Yes be patient in the Lord and his timing, however who of you knows his timing ? What if its now and we cant see it? What about trying to be pro-active. Never giving up, striving to be the best at whatever it is that you do. Taking chances. I need to take chances on alot of things, in alot of areas of my life. I need to be me. The me that doesnt flinch when I am determined or have my mind set on a goal. The me that had been lost for awhile and now must come out and let the "boat" save me even though my trust was always in God, and always looking upward.